Six months to the day since the last time I spoke to my friend Regina and today I run across and e-mail from her. What a weird and disconnected sort of feeling that stirred up.
I've just recently gotten to the place where I can drive home from work and not turn to look and wonder if she's home when I pass by her former street.
I'm still not over the sudden reflection of her in a person that resembles her as I wander through a store while shopping. Weird huh? No one actually looks 'like' her, but something suddenly overcomes me. Something suddenly parts our two dimensions of time and we connect.
This might be weird, except that I consider myself a spiritual person; one not unfamiliar with help and connections from beyond the veil. It always takes me by surprise and I doubt that even those more in tune than I are ever prepared for such an experience. I'm still trying to learn what to do with these experiences.
I've noticed something else -- even though time has progressed along; meaning that six months have passed since the death of my dear friend. It is a very slow passage and the sense and feel of time has changed for me with this loss. Its peculiar and causes me again to sense a disconnection from ..... ????
These past six months have been the most difficult for me personally. Some of my greatest trials have taken place during these past months. With Regina gone I feel lost and have no one to confide in and counsel with. I've no one to go to the temple with and talk about deeper things.
There have been so many times when I've wanted to see if her phone would pick up if I called the number or if an e-mail would be replied to if I sent one alone. Though our realms are separated we have not and it is a pecular thing to experience this so frequently.
What do I do with this?
